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Wednesday

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March 2014

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Thursday

20

March 2014

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Cheese Ball Rosary

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I learned two things the other day: We belong to each other, and cheese balls make great rosaries… Come share a taste of life with me at Deeper Story today.

Thursday

13

March 2014

12

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The Thing About Kicking Ass and Also Not Being Enough

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My first book is about to go to press and I should be high-fiving myself and happy dancing. Actually, last week, I was. I spent two-and-a-half years working on something that was important enough to me to let it flip my life upside down and turn my heart inside out, and it is done. I’m making the last edits to the proof copy, and then we ship. “What a Woman Is Worth” will be on sale for $14.99 on Amazon (paperback and Kindle) in April. That’s fucking huge. I’m a champ. And I feel 100%, not at all enough. Because [...]

Monday

10

March 2014

14

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I’m Here for Today

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This is one of those days where I’m really just not in the mood to participate in life. There’s too much to do, and too much to worry about, and too much out of control, and so I would just like to quit, hide, and shut down, thank you very much. I felt this feeling, and so I was about to go announce it on Facebook– because isn’t that the way to claim and validate our every experience?– and then I saw the obituary announcement for a woman I used to go to church with. I want to opt out [...]

Wednesday

15

January 2014

1

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On a Bus Ride of Redemption

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I’m already in my school bus seat when you get on board, so you’re headed right toward me, but I would’ve noticed you anyway. I can always tell my kind. I’m across the aisle from my daughter. She wanted me to chaperone for the theater but not actually sit with her—that honor is reserved for her newest best friend. They’re the girls who talk nonstop but never once to you, and I bet you think I’m in the club, but don’t let my cute shoes fool you. The only difference between you and me is that I’ve had 22 more [...]

Monday

13

January 2014

12

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A Bit of My Mind, A Lot of My Heart

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I’ve shared a bit of my mind and a lot of my heart at my friend Rachel Held Evans’ blog today as part of a roundtable discussion on what the American evangelical support of Phil Robertson in the wake of his derogatory remarks meant to LGBTQ and black people. I hope you’ll read, think, and join in the conversation.

Tuesday

7

January 2014

9

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How is God for You?

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“How is God for you?” my friend asked, but I read it wrong. I didn’t see the “for you” and I said, flippant but honest, “I reckon God is good as ever. Haven’t asked in a while.” And I guess maybe I read it right. Because it made me go and ask God, “How are you?” And I looked up to the ceiling when I prayed it, but that was wrong too. I tucked my head down to my chest and closed my eyes, asked again. “How are you?” And I really wanted to know. Because that’s how relationships between [...]

Monday

6

January 2014

3

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Happy New Year: Did We All Make It Through?

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Oh my gosh, you guys, the holidays. I feel like we need to take attendance. Did we all make it through? So many of us were worried with finances and family. Can we afford to spend our money on these gifts and this food and the travel? Can we afford to spend our sanity and time with these people who drive us absolutely fucking nuts because they have ALL the wrong sociopolitical ideals but we share their damn genes and 20-30-40 years’ worth of life? Can we afford NOT to spend it? So many of us were dreading the whole [...]

Thursday

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November 2013

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Sunday

21

July 2013

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I’m Getting Ready to Stop Procrastinating: On Answering a Calling Someday Soonish

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I’ve been feeling lately like God is asking me to “stand in the divide.” I’m not entirely sure I know what that means, and what I might guess it means is relatively terrifying. So I’ve done like I do and given it 90% procrastination and 10% lip service. But today in church my minister said that each of us has a calling, and it’s right here and right now. And then I heard God ask me again to stand in the divide. So I joined in communion, and a kind man prayed for me with a full-on dimpled smile and [...]