Tamara Out Loud

A Deeper Story Archive

Wednesday

19

November 2014

5

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They Call Her Mama

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Pride Family

I’m happy to be making my debut on the Family channel of A Deeper Story today with this special glimpse of my life and the ones I love. I have big hopes for what you might see. Will you come tell me? Read They Call Her Mama

Friday

22

August 2014

2

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We All Face the Sun Together

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sunset

I saw the sand. I saw my own melting-pot family. I saw a topless young mom and her son. I saw the water. I saw an old southern man. I saw an Indian toddler. I saw couples in love. I saw the sun. I saw God at the beach one late afternoon. I’d love for you to join me at A Deeper Story today so you can see too. Photo: Patricia Baumann (c) 2014

Friday

28

June 2013

2

COMMENTS

How to Say Grace

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The Church is rife with divisions, and I so often find myself on the side that is excluded from the table. But my mother has taught me how to say grace, even from a distance. I’m honored to share her story with you today at A Deeper Story.

Tuesday

15

May 2012

2

COMMENTS

The Resurrection Power, Now

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We sat on the bed, strained throats fighting to articulate sense. Easter was a few days past, and I halfheartedly ate the mini gourmet chocolate bunny; it tasted good but it made no difference at all. I told him something was missing, something I couldn’t place but that I needed desperately to have, something that mattered to the whole of me and to my being whole. I folded the gold wrapper, not into my quirky trademark perfect, tiny square, but back into the form of the bunny, now two-dimensional, empty. Our conversation careened us on a trajectory that terrified us […]

Wednesday

18

April 2012

10

COMMENTS

A Sacrifice to All the Wrong Gods

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There is a certain weight around which I feel most comfortable and confident, and I was about seven pounds beyond it when I went to speak at the Killer Tribes Conference a few weeks ago. I was not thrilled about this fact. But people paid attention anyway. They even said I kicked ass, not that mine was too big. And as I went on my only run of spring break (for which I had so optimistically packed five workout outfits), a few words about the lies I’m given to believe came to mind, and I’m sharing them at A Deeper […]

Thursday

15

March 2012

32

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A Letter to My Rapist

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As I’ve been reading, re-reading, editing, and deliberating over a throng of submissions for What a Woman is Worth, I’ve held up. Mostly. For every heartbreaking essay, there is one that heals, and I am grateful and hopeful for the good each will do. But a good friend pointed out that maybe I might be getting a little immersed in the mire, and she didn’t want me to get stuck. So I wrote a letter that all this emotional book work inspired, a letter that was far more important to write than it would be to send, and I am […]

Wednesday

15

February 2012

3

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When Words Become Flesh

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I write monthly for A Deeper Story, where the group of us is blessed to tell stories of Christ and culture, given space both to wrestle hard and to weave soft. We tell the small stories so we might better know the Grand Story, and we sit in a virtual circle beside that space’s dear readers, shoulder to shoulder but for computer screens and miles, a community built on words and the Word. But we remember that the Word became flesh. And this Word-become-flesh brought light to our dark world, not in virtual community but in dwelling among us. And […]

Tuesday

17

January 2012

7

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The Pharisees Are Not Dead

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“Your very adamant message Is grace, grace, grace.” I take it as a compliment Of the highest order, “If I’m to err, I pray it will be On the side of adamant grace.” The study has seemed pretty easy, All of us scholars, Seeking Theo through logos. The commentators say, “The Pharisees are not dead.” And I think, “Sure– I see them all around, Preaching doctrine, Teaching standards, Guarding long-held ways.” (continued) *** Please continue reading today’s post at A Deeper Story!

Monday

19

December 2011

50

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Every New Christmas

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TOL’s 12 Gifts of Christmas! Gifts 9 and 10 are up for grabs today! Because my actual story is posted in full at A Deeper Story, things will go a little differently than they have with the previous gifts: To throw your name in the hat, leave a comment on this post right here. To leave a comment without playing, please visit A Deeper Story and join the discussion there. I’ll announce the recipients tomorrow evening. Regular Gift: You interview me for your blog. White Elephant Gift: I send you the infamous Hot Stuff sign, personalized as I see fit. […]

Wednesday

16

November 2011

4

COMMENTS

A Church Where I Want to Stay

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I’ve lately begun to suspect that the Church is not wholly bent on my sweeping displeasure and total alienation. To be sure, it has done a fine job of putting me off in the ways of particular denominational doctrine, and it has lent handily to my exasperation at church-lady culture. But lately it has missed the piss-me-off mark: In my church last week a woman served communion. *** Please continue reading today’s post at A Deeper Story!