Tamara Out Loud

depression Archive

Wednesday

14

December 2011

74

COMMENTS

Running

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TOL’s 12 Gifts of Christmas! Gifts 5 and 6 are up for grabs today! To throw your name in the hat, leave a comment on this post. (To leave a comment without playing, just add, “No gifts, please!”) I’ll announce the recipients tomorrow evening. Regular Gift: I review/edit/advise on a post/document/manuscript sample of yours (800 words or fewer) or offer a general critique of your blog. White Elephant Gift: I send you a tacky Florida postcard. (What’s this all about?           Gifts 1 & 2            Gifts 3 & 4) _________________________________________________________ Head is clouded, Heart heavy. Choice [...]

Tuesday

4

October 2011

57

COMMENTS

“Not Alone” Book Release: My Piece of the Story

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I don’t know what possessed me to contribute to my friend Alise Wright’s “Not Alone” blog series on depression so many months ago. Nobody really wants to talk about depression, nobody wants to write about it, and, most certainly, nobody wants to read about it. Except that when they do, something amazing happens: Health. Not total healing– not in this life– but health; the health that is honesty, and  community, and hope. When I shared my original post at Alise’s blog, the response from her readers and my own was humbling: People broke their safely guarded silence. They let me [...]

Monday

12

September 2011

124

COMMENTS

Twenty-Four Inches to Choose Truth

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It came on out of nowhere, a small thing turned big, a feeling– normally dismissed– now wielding supernatural strength. It claimed hold; it held tight. First the anger, then the sadness, tired beyond tired, done. Submerged, suffocated. Me. *** My depression sprung up on Saturday, and it didn’t care that the next day I had to sing. And not just sing– lead. Lead worship.

Friday

12

August 2011

22

COMMENTS

TOL Treasure: “When Joy Is Gone, I Am”

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I’m having an incredible time at a worship conference in Maryland this week. One of the speakers really impressed me with his honesty when he confessed before he spoke that he was feeling spiritually dry, and it struck me that giving his talk anyway was a remarkable act of faith. While I’m away, I want to share with you this post from last June as a reminder that no matter what we feel, God remains, and He remains worthy of praise. ___________________________________________________________ There is a church I drive by six times a week as I take my children back and [...]

Thursday

16

December 2010

5

COMMENTS

You Are Not Alone

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I’ve only just begun it, but I can already tell you: Writing about depression is hard. Writing about my faltering faith, my personality defects, my physical flaws, my parenting struggles– that’s easy. That’s stuff everyone goes through; I know I’m not alone. But Depression is a sinister demon, and it’s a damn good liar, and it loves to whisper, “You’re all alone.” I am thrilled to be guest posting at Big Mama’s Blog today as a part of her “Not Alone” Series. Please CLICK HERE to read the rest of my story!

Tuesday

1

June 2010

11

COMMENTS

When Joy Is Gone, I Am

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There is a church I drive by six times a week as I take my children back and forth to their team practices. For the last week or so, the marquee out front has declared, “God is the joy in you,” and for the last week or so, if I gave it any thought at all, it was a passing thought of the “Oh, that’s a nice idea” variety. But the last day I drove by it, I didn’t feel that it was all that nice. In fact, I felt pretty severely pissed about the whole thing. The last day [...]