Tamara Out Loud

doubt Archive

Friday

23

September 2011

47

COMMENTS

What We’re Worth: A Community Collection

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Since I published my original post, “What’s a Girl Worth?“, and called for community responses to the issues it raised of worth and doubt, people have been test-touching and wincing at memories, wrestling emotions into prose, braving bare exposure, and still, somehow, finding the buoyancy to reach out to encourage others to do the very same, very difficult things. I can’t help but believe the outcome will be marvelous. If you are contributing to this community collection, I hope the writing of your story brought you catharsis or conviction. If you have ever doubted your worth, I hope you will […]

Monday

19

September 2011

17

COMMENTS

What’s a Girl Worth?

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I was 13– Excited to be out late at Denny’s with my friends, talking and laughing, effervescent, carefree. He was much older, at least in his 30s, but he zeroed in on me. He leered, scruffy face so close, stinking drunk, and he loud-whispered words I’d never heard about what he wanted to do to me. He said he would make me quiver, and he did. Just not the way he meant. I sought comfort from two women I thought would understand, but they could only see the moment through their own dark-tinted lenses. My experience wasn’t as bad as […]

Wednesday

27

July 2011

5

COMMENTS

This Means Church

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My pastor once said that choosing a church was a little like getting married: You don’t hop around from one to the next; You “date” the same one for a while, and then you commit. But how do you handle doubts about the one you chose? *** Please visit A Deeper Story to read the rest of today’s post!

Monday

25

October 2010

13

COMMENTS

We Sing Hope

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I spoke with a couple of my friends at church yesterday, one who lost her mother and another who lost her pregnancy. I don’t know either of these pains, so I’m reluctant to try to touch them with clumsy hands. But I love these friends, and so I want to get close, even if I don’t know what to do when I get there. It’s been a few months since L. lost her mother, and it wasn’t at the forefront of my mind when I saw her. So I asked the casual, “How are you?”, not thinking. But L. is […]

Wednesday

22

September 2010

4

COMMENTS

Apology/Apologetics

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An email regarding my last post has forced me to make two of my least favorite admissions: 1.) I was wrong, and 2.) I am worthwhile. In that post, I said I would state facts about what had been happening to cause a lapse in posting but that I wouldn’t apologize because I felt it would be too self-aggrandizing. But my friend called me out: In the spirit of facts, here’s another one: what you write is important to people. So, if we’ve come to expect a certain frequency in your writing, and you fall short of it, then I […]