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Saturday

7

April 2012

7

COMMENTS

TOL Treasure: “Day Before Easter”

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I went straight from the Killer Tribes Conference to spring break with my family, so it’s been a little quiet around here lately. But I think this poem, shared here two years ago, is a fitting whisper into the spiritual quiet that precedes Easter Day. I hope it will bless you in some small way and that your Easter will be joy-filled. –Tamara ________________________________________________________ Still, In the stillness Waiting, Waiting still. Not yet joy, Just the darkness, Waiting, Waiting still. Hope In the quiet, Through the darkness, But still Waiting, hoping Still, Still, Still.

Tuesday

24

January 2012

10

COMMENTS

Guest Post: “Requiem of a Twilight Dream”

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Today’s guest post comes from Matt Sargent. I so appreciate Matt and his wife, Shanda, for their wicked senses of humor and their gentle, encouraging hearts. Matt had this to say about the incredible story behind his poem: “It was right in the middle of the absolute darkest moments of our marriage and  lives– a darkness we never dreamed existed, let alone thought WE would experience. I was vacuuming on a Thursday and, in a God-whisper-moment beyond words, He did His thing in my heart that afternoon.” I hope you’ll be as captivated by the beauty of his poem and [...]

Monday

19

December 2011

50

COMMENTS

Every New Christmas

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TOL’s 12 Gifts of Christmas! Gifts 9 and 10 are up for grabs today! Because my actual story is posted in full at A Deeper Story, things will go a little differently than they have with the previous gifts: To throw your name in the hat, leave a comment on this post right here. To leave a comment without playing, please visit A Deeper Story and join the discussion there. I’ll announce the recipients tomorrow evening. Regular Gift: You interview me for your blog. White Elephant Gift: I send you the infamous Hot Stuff sign, personalized as I see fit. [...]

Wednesday

16

November 2011

4

COMMENTS

A Church Where I Want to Stay

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I’ve lately begun to suspect that the Church is not wholly bent on my sweeping displeasure and total alienation. To be sure, it has done a fine job of putting me off in the ways of particular denominational doctrine, and it has lent handily to my exasperation at church-lady culture. But lately it has missed the piss-me-off mark: In my church last week a woman served communion. *** Please continue reading today’s post at A Deeper Story!

Friday

23

September 2011

47

COMMENTS

What We’re Worth: A Community Collection

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Since I published my original post, “What’s a Girl Worth?“, and called for community responses to the issues it raised of worth and doubt, people have been test-touching and wincing at memories, wrestling emotions into prose, braving bare exposure, and still, somehow, finding the buoyancy to reach out to encourage others to do the very same, very difficult things. I can’t help but believe the outcome will be marvelous. If you are contributing to this community collection, I hope the writing of your story brought you catharsis or conviction. If you have ever doubted your worth, I hope you will [...]

Monday

12

September 2011

124

COMMENTS

Twenty-Four Inches to Choose Truth

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It came on out of nowhere, a small thing turned big, a feeling– normally dismissed– now wielding supernatural strength. It claimed hold; it held tight. First the anger, then the sadness, tired beyond tired, done. Submerged, suffocated. Me. *** My depression sprung up on Saturday, and it didn’t care that the next day I had to sing. And not just sing– lead. Lead worship.

Monday

22

August 2011

7

COMMENTS

We Remain, We Are Remembered

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The songwriter dreams desperately: On the very day I die The very last of my desires Is that you take my broken body And commit it to the fire And then when the fire is finished Scrape the ashes in a tin Take them down to London’s drinking reservoirs And throw them in And then specks infinitesimal of my mortal remains Will slide down seven million throats and into seven million veins And I will creep through their capillaries to the marrow of their bones And they will wake to bright new mornings and then wordlessly they’ll know That I [...]

Friday

12

August 2011

22

COMMENTS

TOL Treasure: “When Joy Is Gone, I Am”

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I’m having an incredible time at a worship conference in Maryland this week. One of the speakers really impressed me with his honesty when he confessed before he spoke that he was feeling spiritually dry, and it struck me that giving his talk anyway was a remarkable act of faith. While I’m away, I want to share with you this post from last June as a reminder that no matter what we feel, God remains, and He remains worthy of praise. ___________________________________________________________ There is a church I drive by six times a week as I take my children back and [...]

Monday

18

July 2011

54

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Light Out of Darkness

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We set up camp for the evening– beach chairs and my parents’ threadbare comforter, boogie boards and amateur sculpting tools, coolers and canvas bags filled with dinner and late-night snacks and anticipation. The kids dug and flung, chased and squealed. The grownups drank deep the salty air and fleeting moment. A rough and drawn-out thunderstorm, so unlike the typical Floridian summer evening showers, had threatened to dash the whole night, to cast gloom where so many would look for illumination, to beat down the white powder nestling places. But with just enough time to restore the centerpiece event, the torrent [...]

Thursday

26

May 2011

13

COMMENTS

The Best Story

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It will not be the funniest and it may not even be the most well written, but this is the best story I will ever tell. *** I know that’s not much to go on, but I promise you it’s true. Please visit A Deeper Story to continue reading!